my brother simon just introduced me to a new online pet game... its fun to have a new little web game to play i think. i was super into web pet games when i was younger but i havent been very good about consistently playing any of them in the past few years.. i mean it makes sense considering im a way busier person nowadays than i was when i was like 11. but shrugs. pixel cats end is fairly fun so far, even if im still just in the very beginning stuff atm
so far ive got my starter cats, which ive named them all after different plants and fungi. its fun. i like having little naming schemes for these sorts of games a lot of the time. like my goatlings are generally all named after uncommon adjectives. my cat village is also named coppice, like an area of woodland. :-]
anywayssss this isnt a long blog entry i just felt like writing shit down. lol
wowwww i do not use this enough lol.. last blog entry in july... i think unfortunately im too accustomed to letting my longwinded ramblings stay confined to my own mind as i try to use them to lull myself to sleep. smh my head, not addicted enough to sharing my every thought online. i cant believe it. im seriously failing as a blogger. i think its also because im more used to shortform tumblr posting where i just start saying whatever sentence is currently being thought in my head that second
in other news: ive been on a minecraft grind again lately. today actually happens to be the first birthday of my minecraft server ive been getting back to playing on a bunch lately. i didnt even realize it had been that long until a week or two ago i was rooting around in the files to find the level.dat to look at the chunkbase map. but damn i guess its been a year. ive been feeling that a lot lately. i had a rough fuckin time last year and reaching all these one year marks since different things have happened has been. interesting to say the least
anyways. i was talking about minecraft. ive always enjoyed playing minecraft because its a game where i have both the option to zone out and do various menial tasks, or lock in and get some shit done. up there with folding laundry its basically the only thing that lets me focus on a podcast proper, lol. minecraft multiplayer has always been special to me, though. a good singleplayer world is definitely viable to have fun in, they never quite click in the same way that multiplayer worlds have. i still reminisce every once in a while about a minecraft pocket edition world me and my best friend from middle school dedicatedly played in for months and all of our various disappearing pets that each got their own gravestone in our (eventually kind of large) graveyard for all of them. or the multiple double chests just filled with fishing loot from our hours upon hours of fishing. i think the special part of minecraft multiplayer is that each world inevitably develops some kind of history to it through the in-jokes you form with the other people on it
like, my current minecraft server has had all sorts of things. my friends and i built all of our houses and other buildings into a little city together, and one day i put up a little bulletin board of laws. with such famous rules as 'no breeding' (which was later amended to hex is allowed to breed', despite him being the reason i tried to ban breeding the farm animals in the first place lol), or 'fishing rods are not cars'. i even got us a mayor. the mayor is a dog. he lived next to the laws bulletin board for a while, but one friend built him a whole castle, where he now resides. they also ended up building an entire courthouse for the city as well, which is fairly impressive. but one time. this friend threw a bunch of pufferfish on the ground at the farm where another one of our friends was farming, and was immediately called out for littering. i jokingly announced that littering constituted treason, and they started threatening to leave the city. i made an addendum to the rule that treason actually wasnt illegal, but they ended up running off to build their own little city a little bit away. to be fair i think it was just an excuse to build a bunch of new buildings and maybe have some more consistent theming throughout. they are a pretty solid builder. after all they did build a lot of the fancier buildings in the main city, lol. however. little do they know. hex and i have been scheming. weve planned to build a theme park on the stretch of land between the cities. partially because it seems like a fun project. and partially because we think itd be really funny to close the gap between the cities. thats the sort of project that requires a little more planning than a lot of the other projects ive done in the server so far. its a little bit of a more deliberate sort of thing. its alright though, because the other good thing about multiplayer is that its a lot easier to do big things when you have other people helping with the work :-]
my cd player finally came in yesterday after waiting nearly a week for it to arrive. maybe this is because im a massive fucking nerd who likes cds a lot, but i was pretty damn excited. i didnt get a chance to use it aside from a quick cursory test, but today i finally had my opportunity. i took my twin fantasy cd (the mirror to mirror version, if only because i wanted to listen to famous prophets (minds) while i was out) and grabbed the monster energy i had cracked open with my lunch and i went for a nice walk. it was a pretty good walk, even if it was a little hot and the threat of rain suddenly started looming over me about halfway through. but i didnt mind. i walked down to the little pier on the lake right nearby and i sat there for about half an hour just jamming out and enjoying the view and a nice beverage. twin fantasy truly is a summertime sort of album to me, if im being honest. i first* got into csh in the fall of 2022 (*actively into csh, id listened to one song a couple of times about a year and a half prior and then wasnt sure if it was really my thing. boy was i wrong), and i was primarily into their album how to leave town. it wasnt until the weather started getting hot in the may/june 'its too hot to feel like spring anymore, but its not quite summer either' season and i listened to bodys while laying in the hammock in my yard that the song, and then the rest of the album following suit, properly clicked in my mind.
anyways. i was having quite a pleasant time outside. but i was reaching late enough in the album, and the threat of sudden downpour was becoming more present, so i walked back home. i got home as twin fantasy (those boys) played out, a good sense of timing on my part. i ended up showing off my cd player to my parents, who laughed and said i was the oldest 18 year old in the world, and that i could have been one of their weird friends in high school. and i mean. they had some fair points. i own a knockoff discman, much of the way that i dress, i like riding the train into the city to watch movies and going to the mall with my friends. hell, im sure that the fact that im writing a whole blog entry about this on my personal website wouldnt help if they knew about it, lol.
on the subject of friends, though. last week something very exciting happened :-]. i meant to write something here about it then but i kept forgetting, lmao. anyways. my brother dirk came down to visit from out of state. him, our buddy hex, and i had a great time hanging out of the course of a couple days. we did all the cool stuff to do when you hang out with your friends in the midwest like. uh. sit on top of your car in the parking lot of where the nearby movie theater used to be and sing your throat raw to awesome music. hang out at the mall and get matching knives from bass pro shops. go rollerblading through a trail in the woods next to the skate park. smoke catnip. go back to the house and have a bonfire. fall asleep on the couch watching seinfeld. it was a really fucking awesome experience, if im being blunt. its not the first time ive met up with an online friend (back in january i went to taco bell with my friend loki who happened to live in the town i was visiting family in), but finally getting to meet up with dirk was something wed both been excited for for. practically since we first started talking, lmao. its a little funny that, we clicked insanely fast and understood each other like no one had ever understood either one of us before that point, but we couldnt quite place the fact that we were like brothers until. reading homestuck. lmao. well, life is funny like that sometimes.
i went down to the city to go watch i saw the tv glow today in theaters. my personal review? honestly devastating film. like. im not sure how else to put it. as someone queer and psychotic especially, it definitely hits a place close to home. it was great, though. i definitely love that kind of surreal horror, and its always a good time to watch movies that lean into that sort of thing.
as an experience, additionally, it was definitely interesting. ive never actually been in a movie theater by myself before. i mean, usually movies are a good activity for friends, or sometimes my family will go out to watch a movie at the theater together if theres one were all interested in thats come out. but this time, i went alone. i sat all the way in the back (which personally, i usually dont pick the back row, but this time was an exception i guess lmao), and was one of maybe four people in the theater? i mean, it was a tuesday afternoon, so its not surprising, but still. as soon as the credits hit, i could hear the sound of the three other people in the theater crying. it left me feeling strange, but i had a train to catch, so i couldnt spend much time caring about the fact that i wasnt crying. matinees always feel odd, walking out of the dark box of the theater into just. normal daytime. you still feel that 'i just watched a movie and now something about the world feels fundamentally different' feeling, while also being confronted with the cold hard grip of the outside world. death at the movies by car seat headrest gets it. "its hard to adjust your eyes after the matinee / from the womb of the theater to the light of day / but youve got something to think about on the ride home / or something to talk about if youre not alone". as i was alone, i enjoyed a contemplative train ride.
other than that, i generally enjoyed my trip into the city. i can always enjoy a nice train ride, then walking around. also i got some good pizza so. thumbs up. all in all, id say today was pretty successful. i mean, it was interesting enough for me to write a whole lengthy blog entry about, lol
finally adding stuff to my site again this week because why the hell not. this section may get used a lot. or not. well see. how it feels to be the guy with one billion things to say. well if youre here, have a gif
